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Irritation

 I get irritated very easily.


When & why? I don't know. But what I know is if someone is trying to forcefully catch me into something I don't want to be a part of - directly or in any indirect way, I just hate it. 

I lose my temper. And you know why because I just hate, I just hate simply being  forced. 

I have very little space in there - very little to keeps things up to me. But yes, I do. 
I keep it secret. Everything - Everything I fear someone if knows will make fun of me, will not like me (may be) . More than that I just feel that knowing such a thing about me will make some/anyone feel bad & perhaps I don't like it.

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