Life

Kuch din to aise hi hote hain.. Aj dekhta hun to lagta hai kaam se ghar kyun aya hun pata nahi ghar se kaam ke liye bhi kyun jaa Raha hun pata nahi Khoya hua sa hun kaam par jane me thora to sukoon hai Ghar par maa ke sath hone me bhi sukoon hai fir bhi  is shaant se mahol me kuch to mann ko aur bhi zyada shant sa kiye jaa raha hai Shayad mann ko itna bhi shant nahi hona tha ki kuch bolne ki bhi ichcha na ho dekhte hain kuch to kar hi lenge.. haar nahi maan ni hai, kisi ko taqlif nahi honi chahiye bas.. zindagi to chalti rehti hai ab lagta to hai kafi kuch zindagi me dekh liya hai aur aisa bhi lagta hai ki dukh ya khas gehre din zyada karib chalte hain mujhse, mujhe zyada pasand karte hain ye.. par thik hai- ab bhi zinda hun in sabhi ke bad, sansein chal rahi hain, zarur koi kaam aur kuch zimmedari ab bhi baki hai khushiyan kahin piche chut gayi hain shayad, jaise ruthi nahi, anjaan hi ho ek bar ko aati hai fir jaate der nahi lagati, mai shayad unki talash me zyada pareshan hun.. A...

Late night again The dawn aa moved past, night has taken over with slight darkness outside and more here inside. I can't see any ray of hope directly around me but I do see some reflections on the wall. Don't know where these are going to take me further. Another day, without you, moving past, actually moved past and here I am still the same. I feel sad and more sad when I see am at the same point as yesterday and still here alone. Not able to understand anything beyond what I can understand and I this line also, nothing is coming to my mind. I feel blank, just blank, what is happening, where am I going and why? Don't know the answer to these riddles doing the rounds. In the mornings I walk and in the nights I run, run from myself, as I feel more of me with her than myself. I want to listen to her, see her animated faces over and over again, just that. But there is no way available and am not able to look any real distance, anything for real ahead. I never knew waiting is t...

Late night, Pata nahi mujhe kaisa feel ho raha hai Jab sochta hun to bas sochta chala jata hun Jab likhta hun to bas likhta chala jata hun Kabhi kabhi ya ab toh aur zyada aisa lagta hai Ki zindagi ka matlab aur maksad dono hi khoj Raha hun. Bas chala Jaa Raha hun kyun pata nahi kisliye ye bhi pata nahi. Kyun hi jeena hai ab mujhe Samajh nahi ata jaise.. Zimmdariyan hain.. shayad isliye mai bhi hun.. Jab ye nahi hongi to meri bhi koi zindagi aur zarurat nhi hai shayad  Khushiyan to alag hi jaise pareshan h bechari mujhse Thore der bhi aakar bore ho jati h Feeling low, ise mai bahut pasand hun, wapis aa hi jati h turant, jaldi se jaldi aur sath hi rehti h jaati nahin.. Aisi hi zindagi hai Sochta hun mujhe aur zyada chup rehna sikhna chahiye  Jitna bolunga utna zyada pata chalega mujhe ki mai andar se Tut rha hun Haan koi baat nahi Dekhte hain kal ka din abhi dekhna baki to hai..