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In my free time, I like to blog, I like to write, I like to pen down my expressions introvertly. Or unlike mostly, I like to watch movies, old cartoon shows which I used to watch, but alone.

This alone word seems to stick with me from a long time back now. And nowadays it's quite so common that the other part seems tough. I do not have social anxiety disorder but I like to stay away from crowds.
Like something has stopped inside, long back possibly and nothing new seems to entertain that inner part to wake it up. This just nullifies any attempt of feelings inside. Happiness and sadness, I can't feel them anymore. 
It's a point life seems to be saturating with all desires and aspirations awaiting for something magical to kick up itself. And may be I know somehow, it isn't going to happen anytime sooner or later even.

With that being said, don't judge me to be pessimistic, I am highly positive and optimistic also. But at times optimism doesn't have to deal with reality one on one, right? 
So that was my free time waiting to get busy with some good interest. !!





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